Currently Listening Oh No By OK Go Oh Lately It's So Quiet see related

O HAPPY DAY or A Tribute To Felicia

For some reason, I've had the Fruit of the Loom underwear song AND O Happy Day stuck in my head for the past hour.  Thanks a lot, Felicia.  Krystal, Johnna, and I talked about you today, actually.  Ah, memories of tripping over you in the middle of the night and having conversations in my sleep.  I'm coming home tonight.  I will call you.  Stalk, call, same thing.

Today has been absolutely fantastic.  I went to American Government and took the dreaded test.  It pretty much kicked my butt, but that's ok.  Math was funny, as usual.  I love sitting there and making fun of Waddell.  Today he gave us compasses because we're "learning" geometry.  Sarah and I sat there and came up with different ways we could stab him with the pointy ends.  Education was education.  Krystal, Johnna, Tami, and I skipped geology and went to the Cave for some foodage.  We had been there for about 20 minutes when our geology professor, Mr. Berlin, came in.  We all tried not to look at him, but then he came up to our table and he said the following:  "Well, well, well, look who skipped class."  I proceeded to ask him if we missed anything, as I tried to maintain an angelic look on my face (wait, I don't have to try) and he told us no and that it was just a short class.  I guess you had to be there because it sounded a lot funnier in my head.

Anyway, I'm going home tonight after work.  I was pretty much dreading it but now I'm pumped.  I cannot wait to get home.  I have to go pack here in a few and then I have to go to Hell...I mean...Appalachian Studies and then I go to the elementary school.  As soon as that's over, I'm going home.  And getting a Tim Horton's Ice Cap, because I haven't had one in a month.  A month.  That's just blasphemous.  I was kind of afraid that I'd have too much time to think or too much time to get depressed about Brew.  But I don't think I will now.  I'm going out with my mom tomorrow and getting a much needed hair cut.  I might be working.  I don't know because Ashley will never answer her phone.  Thursday, I'm going out with the lovely Mary Withum, whom I haven't seen in FOREVER.  Yes, and I'm going to do a massive amount of homework.  And play with my dog.  And maybe do something with my brother.  I don't know.

Anyway, I have to go pack now.

<3 Katie

Side Note:  Does poverty constitute whether or not a kid is more responsible when playing with sticks?  I think not. 

Currently Listening Eye To The Telescope By KT Tunstall Under The Weather see related

*sniff sniff* Something smells like roadkill...

Something smells like roadkill.  What is it?  Oh yeah, that's my life.  *rolls eyes* 

Yes, because I'm not in the mood to write anything of substance, I'm going to make top 5 lists.

5 Bright Things in the Life of Katie Smith

1. Phone calls.  They are the greatest thing in the entire world.  Especially when they're from a good friend.
2. Music.  A variety of music.  It makes me happy.
3. Children's Media Class with Dr. Harris.  I just finished Because of Winn-Dixie.  It made me laugh.  It made me cry.  I freaking love that book.
4. Sleep.  I slept through my Appalachian Studies class.  I now have my revenge because Klaus makes that class terribly boring.
5. Dodgeball.  I played dodgeball with the second and third graders today, even though playing it is technically illegal.  I definitely got pummeled by those little guys.

5 Not-So-Bright Things in the Life of Katie Smith

1. Breaking up.  Brew and I just broke up.  It is now official.  And it sucks, but perhaps it was for the best.
2. School.  I have way too much to do.
3. Cleaning.  I clean my room one day, and it looks fantastic.  The next day, it's messy again and I have no idea how or why it got that way.
4. The dark.  It gets way too dark way too early.
5. Going home.  I want to see my family, but I am so dreading going home.

There you have it, ladies and gentlemen. 

Under this national rain cloud, I'm getting soaked to the skin.  Trying to find my umbrella, but I don't know where to begin.  And it's simply irrational weather, I can't even hear myself think.  Constantly bailing out water, but still feel like I'm gonna sink.

Cause I'm under the weather, just like the world, so sorry for being so bold.  When I turn out the light, you're out of sight although I know that I'm not alone.  It feels like home.

How to deal...

 Right at the moment, I'm not quite sure how to feel.  So many things in life are good.  But there are things that certainly displease me.  It is reflected somewhat in my playlist for the night.  It includes the following:

1. My Doorbell--The White Stripes
2. Over My Head (Cable Car)--The Fray
3. Photograph--Weezer
4. Pressing On--Relient K
5. It's Beginning to Get to Me--Snow Patrol
6. Dance Inside--The All-American Rejects
7. Uncle Albert--Paul McCartney
8. Pressure Point--The Zutons
9. We're Going To Be Friends--The White Stripes
10. Pacific Sun--Dashboard Confessional
11. No Sign of Life--OK Go
12. View From Heaven--Yellowcard
13. Oh Lately It's So Quiet--OK Go
14. Grand Theft Autumn--Fall Out Boy
15. Smile Like You Mean It--The Killers
16. You Could Be Happy--Snow Patrol

And I'll end with that, I won't bore you with all 41 items.  I just wish the things that I was worrying about, the terribly sad things that are happening would be rectified.  No one seems to care but me.  And that saddens me. 

Things will get better.

Things have to get better.

I'll be damned if they don't.

I think we're going somewhere, we're onto something good here.  Out of mind, out of state, trying to keep my head on straight...There's only one thing left to do: drop all I have and go with you.

I knew it from the start...

A quick update before class begins.  Life has been going in a generally good direction.  There are some things that I'm not happy with...not right now...but they'll get better.  I'm assured of that every night.  It's going to be ok. 

Classes are generally good also.  It's midterm week and I have a test tomorrow in Children's Media, a test Wednesday in Geology, and another test Friday in American Government.  Should be no sweat--or so I'm hoping.  For some reason I am not even slightly worried about them. 

Today has been pretty crazy.  I slept fitfully through the night having nightmares about a being locked in a basement with a psycho killer.  I ended up waking up at 5 AM having to pee so bad it wasn't even funny but I couldn't get up and go to the bathroom because the psycho killer would get me.  Luckily, I didn't wet the bed.  Then, Krystal woke me up at 7:15ish this morning to ask me if she could use my printer.  I kept on saying "huh?  what?"--yes, yes, I know, I ask that all the time anyway because I'm deaf...but this was simply because I could not for the life of me understand what she wanted--and I eventually had to sit up and think for about 5 minutes before I understood.  And then I went to the bathroom.  It was liberating, really.

I think I'm going to begin writing in a journal.  Not an online journal...but one just for me.  One that I can write every single thing that happens in my life and not be afraid of hurting someone's feelings or just because I want to keep the memory all to myself.  I find that, in my old age, I say I'm going to remember certain things and then the next moment they're completely gone.  Yes, I think I'll do that.

...I close my eyes and I smile knowing that everything is alright to the core...

Currently Listening Foiled By Blue October It's Just Me see related

This is no reflection of my feelings or anything like that...I just think it's a beautiful song.

I lost a piece of me in you;
I think I left it in your arms.
I forget the reasons I got scared,
But remember that I cared quite a lot.

You see but lately I've been on my own.
Yeah one, but one by choice.
You see, thats a first for me,
There's only me, yeah theres only me,
And now I realize for once,
It's just me.
It's just me.
It's just me,
And I'll find a way to make it,
There's noone left to stop me.
Here I go.
Can we take it from the top?

So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I'm already spent living half my life undone
So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take this from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

I've been talking to my aunts and uncles, mom and dad again.
I've been finding out that I have what this world calls friends.
I've tried to push them all away,
They push me back and wanna stay
And that's one good thing I have.

I'm gonna feel a peace in me,
I'm gonna feel at home.
I'm gonna make this cloud above me disappear, be gone.
I wanna feel a punch inside, my heart beat on the floor.
I don't wanna hurt no more.

Yeah it's just me.
It's just me
And I'll find a way to make it.
There's noone left to stop me.
Here I go, can we take it from the top?

So why so long?
So sad, I wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

So why so long?
So sad, i wanna be strong.
Don't try to take her from me.
I've already spent my life living half undone.

I used to be the one who won before.
I used to smile but dont no more.
I'm living just to watch it all go by.

--It's Just Me, Blue October